Exam pt2

I came out of my exam ok pleased, thinking that it wasn't at all bad... no one I've spoken to feels the same (even the brainy geeks of the class).
maybe I'm super clever, or maybe I answered the questions wrong.

I'm a little stressed. mood swings, and most of my time trying to understand why.
it feels like being reminded that I can't control the life things in my life (mood, work, exams, relationships and my hair)... then I look back and realise that I was only feeling in control for 1 day before, and the day before that I was just a little less than a mess.

Giving the control to God is the difficult bit and I'm too self-controlled to smash stuff up..

Skulls Skulls Skulls

Today I practised x-raying abdi's head at general hospital. This was after a mock. i realised that all my exams this year are going to be open-ended unspecific questions worth few marks and less than no time to finish them.
aaa, & i'd like a little thinking time...

i cut my time for x-raying a single head down to 2-3 minuites!! sweet.

Exam

Tomorrow morning I have an exam... Tonight I have a wierd feeling of excitement. I guess it's because I've been waiting for it for so long.
all day I've been searching for a meaningful answer to why I should not revise, now I finally found it...I need to sleep.
that makes me happy!

Hmm...

I’ve always been a little paranoid about the impression I give… ever since my A-level photography teacher and also most of the class were surprised to hear that I don’t take drugs… the yearbook comment from the teacher was "you are one of the most unique students I’ve ever taught."
When being put on report for poor grades, my head of house’s advice to me was "you need to spend more time in the library instead of getting stoned at the back of the car park".
More recently the superintendent of my 2nd year placement said that I appear to be somewhere else, far away… I got annoyed when she started to say that I’m probably thinking about girls and what I’m going to wear tonight!

I love emma

A Link In

It's friggin' sweet when hannah, (who is into the band that I've wanted to listen to for long time) lends me thier album... yeah, I'm borrowing Yeah Yeah Yeahs... lovely

Napping

I seem to be going back to over-sleeping. I love dreaming... I've been told that you dream more when you sleep in the light. something like: the light goes in through your eyelids to your eyes so you can see your dreams. What-ever, it works.

Yesturday and today I've been getting bored with revising, so I've been napping with my blinds open and the hope that I'll dream something nice... I guess you can call this escapism. maybe thats why old people sleep so much, & yeah, I'm sure there is a big load of other reasons too.

I wake up even more spaced out then normal. I can't really say its worth it.

Muesli

I'm not a big muesli fan. I bought a big bag of musesli 2 days ago. I thought -I'm not going to over eat this. Therefore it'll last a long time, meaning I'll save money.
yesturday morning I woke up to have my first bowl. It leaded onto me having 5 bowls and using nearly all my milk.
today i'm still feeling like that stuff has gotta come out of me... I was told coffee helps with the problems, so I had a coffee already made for the 2 bowls I had today.

Hair

I think that every time I cut my hair I get a little more too confident. My current method is combing my hair up to full volume and waving a large pair of scissors around the surface. today I cut a few clumps off of about 2 inches amoungst a whole lot more. I guess the reason I cut my hair so often is my mistakes become obvious after time.

the last time i cut my hair, i showed emma, who fell on the floor with laughter and had to quickly run to the toilet... dang!

My First Blog Entry Ever!!!

So, last night I had a dream. I was moving into a new house which included a room mate. It was a tiny small room with a single bunk bed. As I entered the room I found my room mate was huge fat, spent all his time in the room and didn't like wearing any clothes... upset, I went to the kitchen to make some noodles.

the evening before, I was talking to emma about how people in hospital seem keen to get naked, then i watched 2 episodes of lost.